Last week I mentioned I would give up chocolate…I didn’t, but today is day number 2 that I have not eaten any chocolate or had any kind of sweets with the exception of some grapes and strawberries. I decided to go on a low calorie diet thing and know what? yesterday ate 1500 calories and it seemed like a lot of food.  the diets tell me I should be eating 2225 calories to maintain my weight and 1820 calories to lose…that’s so much calories. I am giving myself lead way like as long as its under 1800 its ok (obviously for the day not one meal). but I hope I do good this time. I have tried counting calories before, didn’t last long but ,maybe I can do it this time.  I’m not going full force at once just taking it slow I’ll get more into the exercising part later right now I want to train my body to eat less and better.


It’s all a conspiracy I tell you! at work I do these pulmonary tests and of course in order to do them I need the tools and equipment right? so  I noticed friday I was almost out of the tubes I needed so, I call the other office and they send me the stuff I need.  Great now when monday rolls around I will be prepared everything is settled. So I thought…. this morning I come in and notice there is only 3 tubes left in my box…hey what happened? I had 7 in the first place so now there’s a delima do I reschedule these people, or sterilize the stuff or what? well I cant sterilize the stuff because I’m out of the solution and won’t get a new shipment in until this afternoon ( oh and by the way that’s when my tubes will come in), well anyways where did my stuff go? its a mystery. so  anyways a girl here at the office had to drive to our other office to pick up more supplies, I’m really annoyed because now I’m behind in my stuff and people are waiting.  I can tell my coworkers are irritated with me but I swear its not my fault, the stuff was there when I left friday so really where did it go?did I mention I really hate mondays?


Don’t you think in a office you should have some kind of routine or order? its really annoying to have something change everyday. its different in personal life I definitely need changes or I get bored but work is different don’t train me one way then tomorrow tell me I did something wrong…um it was right yesterday. Stop messing with my head.


I have been thinking about my parents a lot today mostly my dad. He will be 76 in march its just so weird to think hes getting so old. Yes its part of life but hes just been changing so much in the past few years he really looks his age. He trys to keep active by doing word searches and doing odd things like cutting cardboard…don’t ask, but its depressing he just lives day by day doing the same thing over and over. He stays at home never goes anywhere even if I want to take him somewhere by himself he wont go without my mom. And that’s sad too if anything happens to her he could not survive he barely can do his own laundry let alone take care of responsibilities, you have to realize that it was just how he was raised the women did all the house stuff and bills and the guys worked and to top it off my dad is a major mommas boy didn’t leave moms until he married my mom. So then there’smy mom she could survive without my dad there but it would be scary she falls all the time has so many health issues its a harsh reality I have to face one day, and every bit of it is on my shoulders I’m a only child so anything that goes on is my responsibility. It’s kind of a sad note to think about but I am surrounded by death often every job I have been in reminds me of how precious life is you never know when your time is up. I really want my parents to see me get married andhave a family, if you think that’s selfish its not its something they both have told me they wanted to see before they die. it does mean a lot to them to see me happy. I think up until recently they were giving up on me I would met someone introduce them to my parents then next thing you know they were gone and it was someone else. This had to be confusing to them, my dad would ask me if I ever thought I would even get married? they did not understand the whole dating thing, I don’t want to marry just anyone. But they have learned to be patient and besides its closer than you know at least I’m with the one I know I’m going to marry. Its been a long wait but its been worth it. love you babe:)


I know I’m not the first person to notice this but why is it that everything that is low in fat or sugar taste nasty? most of the time the diet stuff tastes way sweeter than the reg stuff like diet drinks for example I hate that artificial taste it leaves in your mouth. It’s just really gross…..


You know what is really annoying? people who do the whole cry wolf thing. Like for instance this woman has been in 3 days in a row to see the Dr saying her chest hurts and has  high b/p of course if  someone complains chest pain they will be taken back first and are top priority the problem is shes fine there is no reason she should be here daily for the same problem and then soon as the Dr walks in shes fine, if you have a medical emergency then that’s fine but don’t waste every ones time because you have nothing else better to do and don’t lie  she does not even pay her copayments  she owes so much money but we cant just refuse her, its really not fair to everyone else. when I teach I  have patience.i will take as long as it takes to make sure when they leave they understand what to do but of course there is always that one person who does not want to listen to me and says no i understand i don’t need your help then guess who’s calling me a hr later asking how do i do this? its actually very frustrating if you would of listened the first time we would of been fine. oh well its people what can you do? besides its Friday the day is almost over then i can have 2 whole days without the madness….. I am having trouble editing my stuff so ignore all the bad stuff:)

World Crisis

well there’s a few things on my mind first I’ve been wanting to move out into a house but rent really is ridiculous I would love to have a house my coworkers sister in law is a real-estate agent said its a great time to buy. I’m not really sure on my income if I could afford it but maybe i should apply and pray about it and see what happens cant hurt right?other thing is I’m starting today eating better and oh no maybe no chocolate…..this could turn into a crisis but I’m going to try. lol wouldn’t that be funny if because I didn’t eat chocolate it turned into a world crisis? weird.

Day At The Dr Office

I want to do a little bit of comparison between what happened today when I took my dad to a Dr appointment and the way it works at my office. I work as a medical assistant for a internal medicine Dr. So a typical day would consist of me calling the pt back into my office checking there weight, asking them why they are coming in  and taking there vital signs, along with this is the annoying task of going over every single medication that they are taking, this may sound like a small thing but remember I said I work in internal medicine which means everyone has a ridiculous amount of meds they take because they are diabetics, have high b/p, heart problems etc, anyways that’s off the subject but I do a lot of stuff  before they even get to the Dr any kind of lab stuff or testing Ido that, it keeps me busy and I really love the pt contact they love me:) ok so there’s a part of my life or my day working anyways. now lets look at a day at the cardiologist office and the experience I had, now my dad being a new pt I  knew that meant paperwork so way before the appointment I had them fax the papers to me Ifigured that’s smart it could be done and maybe we wouldn’t have to wait forever to get in um no. So Ifinally get to the office at 11 his appointment is at 11:15 so I’m early I know but they had to make copy’s of cards go over stuff blah blah. So anyways Isit with my parents for the next hr watching Judge Alex and texting Ronnie getting annoyed because now its 12 and Ihave been sitting for 45 minutes (cant add the 15 min cause appointment was 11:15) so anyways finally the girl calls us back she was mildly friendly…its a nice way to describe it she was not super mean but kinda blah..ok enough about the girl she weighs him then takes him into a room to do a b/p on him and of course its those electronic ones(i don’t use those)does it 4 different times tells him he has high b/p um duh hes nervous. so anyways continues to ask questions that were already answered on the paper i filled out but she couldn’t find the paper so whatever then same with the meds I had given them a list and she couldn’t find it then it appeared….in the chart. ok its fine I’m ditzy I know I’ve done the same thing so I’m letting it slide, she does the EKG then leaves. another 30 minutes pass and a Dr comes in. straight faced no personality.asks my dad the same questions he has no idea what shes talking about he looks at me to answer the questions and explain to him whats going on. she was not good at explaining what was going on or what she planned on doing all Igot out of it is hes having a test done tomorrow that will take 4 hrs. she says he has a bad neck and back….um duh Isaid that when they asked about surgeries and when they tried to get him to lie straight on his back he cant do that. ok so basically I was not happy and Idon’t want him to see the doc again I want him to go to the other one and I will make sure it happens.

My first blog…about the love:)

When I look at you, I see a beauty that shines and a heart that glows. when I look into your eyes,  I see a great peace and gentleness that abides within. You have brought such happiness and joy since you came into my life, words cannot express what you mean to me. You have given me hope when I felt like there was none, when I felt like it was impossible to love again you came into my life, you filled that void that was there. You entered my life like a knight in shining armor entering in at the perfect moment to steal my heart and ride off into the sunset. I know in my heart you are the only one I want to spend forever with. I love you so much and am forever grateful that God has put someone as amazing as you in my life.